This is beautifully written – I have chosen an excerpt I found particularly relevant to me but the whole thing is well worth reading.

Sometimes just reading that others feel the way I do helps so much, proving that we do in fact need each other.

It’s a long road.

sometimes, a hug is all what we need

Now, I am learning to give up my favorite coping skills. And when I do, all of those old sensations are stored in the stillness. They waited for me to mature and center. That seems so mean.

But this is the work, and sometimes it pisses me off that my energy is spent on this.

I often look for an easier way. I wonder how old I’ll be when I’m done unraveling the knots in my nervous system.

I’m sick of being sick of the process.

I’ve been an adult longer than I was a child and I don’t want to be impacted. Can’t I at least circle new drains or upgrade the scenery on this repeat track. I don’t want to have to do regular exercise to keep off the emotional pounds.

I feel burdened, exhausted, and martyred at times, wearing an itchy wool coat I can’t disrobe.

It is not the presence of bad (abuse) but the absence of good (love, attachment, boundaries, modeling) that injures children into adulthood. Most of us have learned not to drink, abuse, and be violent (yay us!), but the more subtle aspects of self-care and recovery are healthy nurturing, interdependence, making time for love and joy. Those can be mysterious.

Christine Cissy White

Why Survivors Need Each Other – By Christine Cissy White

Eagles – Opinions Vindicated

So, the asshole thing in the source article makes this meaner than something I would write but I find this article to be pretty spot on when it comes to the band I love to hate.


“Hotel California” – Eagles

Why it sucks: The lyrics are a load of metaphorical bullshit that a freshman English major would be ashamed to write. Then there’s that horrible opening riff. It sounds like the house mariachi band playing for their dinner at your favorite local Mexican spot. All of which leads into the wank off dueling guitar solos. This is a six and a half minute song with zero and a half minutes of listenable music.

Why you suck for liking it: If you liked the Eagles in the ’70s, I can’t totally blame you because there were only three radio stations back then and they probably all played “Hotel California” every 30 minutes for a year straight. But if you like them now, it means you are most likely a dumbshit investment banker who keeps the band’s touring schedule going by renting out $7,000 suites for their shows so you can snack on shrimp cocktail while watching a bunch of old men with long gray hair noodle on their guitars and take three intermissions to get through an hour and a half set.

Read More – I’m not familiar with a few of these but it’s an amusing read in any case.

Honestly, I really don’t mind what other people listen to so much. I mean, if you want to listen to shitty music, feel free. Personally I prefer the non-shitty stuff but whatever.

2014 – A Musical Review

It’s January 1st (Happy New Year) so it’s time to wrap up 2014 with a musical review. Let’s start with most listened to artists (courtesy of my statistics)



Beck at #1 is no surprise as his 2014 release Morning Phase was in super heavy rotation for me. That along with an early year release make his appearance at the top of my chart a sure thing. The Barr Brothers Sleeping Operator had an October release so slid in at #2 despite heavy play. These two are the top contenders for my album of the year, hopefully I’ll be able to choose one by the end of this post.

The Head and the Heart are still running strong on their prior releases to finish third this year while High on Stress finishes at #4.  You may remember they were a twitter / kickstarter find who I discovered this year and well worth giving a listen if you are unfamiliar. They broke up (sad) but front guy Nick Leet has formed a new band so looking forward to hearing more from him / then in 2015.

Genesis rounds out the top five, surprisingly enough. I guess even just a couple of listens to Lamb Lies Down on Broadway will dump some volume in to their counts.

Not too many surprises in the rest of the 20. The Greenberry Woods / Splitsville are newer finds for me, also well worth digging in to if you’re looking for something new.

tracks 2014

Well – you’ve essentially got Morning Phase here for top tracks but “Gone” by The Head and the Heart snuck in there, and deservedly so. Not much to discuss here.

For Top Albums I guess I’m just going to list the releases this year that have fallen in to my regular listening bucket. Lots of stuff came out this year but very little made a big impact on me. Here are the ones I remember.

1) Beck – Morning Phase / I just adore this album. It’s moody, melancholy, textured, layered and gorgeous. I loved Sea Change and this is even better than that.

2) The Barr Brothers – Sleeping Operator / I was eagerly anticipating this one based on the strength of their debut and wasn’t disappointed by the follow-up. “Come in the Water” is surely my song of the year. Great stuff.

3) Ryan Adams – Ryan Adams / He just keeps getting better and better and this eponymous release is tremendous.

4) High On Stress – Leaving Mpls / Straight ahead Rock & Roll from Nick and the gang. Their final release, a wonderful cap on a really great set of albums.

5) Jenny Lewis – The Voyager / Catchy pop with a lot under the surface. Not sure how to explain it, just feels good to listen to it.

Honestly, that’s about all that I can think of for the year. If I am forgetting something it could be that it just didn’t stay on my radar, maybe enjoyable but not enough to keep me returning to it.

Like most years, there were things that were new to me even if not new, flip through the archives for those things, I tend to put up clips as I find them.

Here’s to 2015 – looking forward to seeing what it has in store for us on the musical front.